I've started so many post since my last, but haven't been able/felt like posting them. The words never felt quite right. So I'll just start with this...My older brother Jared unexpectedly and tragically died on November 16th, 2013 at 31 years of age. He left behind a wonderful wife, 3 month old daughter, and the rest of his family and friends. We're all going through our days, moving on, but it's extremely hard. Some days are up and some are down. I don't think it's something that can be explained until you've been through it...Life and memories have been categorized as pre Nov 16th and post Nov 16th. I feel like I'm two different shelleys, the before and the after...